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Well, I’ve been afraid of changing ’cause I built my life around you

Facing the future isn’t easy.

When everybody has moved on, i haven’t.

When everybody is happy, i wasn’t.

it was my choice.

it was too late for people to be mean.

it was too late for people to realize.

it was their choice.

Comrade, speak to me…

I need your views.

am tired V. 2

ano ba meron?

ala naman ah…

the things that you are doing are worthless!

it is not worth it!

rest your body!

rest your mind!

get enough sleep!

depression is sinking in again…

deym

deym in a million times!

wakanapakels!

napapagod ako…

ndi ko alam kung bakit…

nagising ako kanina nangingiyak na lang ako… lately, days are becoming sleepless? for what reason? it’s christmas and i don’t have money… deym deym deym… am working and am pennyless… PIMAN! i mean i wanna buy this and that for my family… but i can’t… simple am pennyless… depression is sinking i know… i know that in a day or two i will be getting sick… deym… yeah deym it and i am getting bigger… deym deym deym… deym about everything… i needed someone that i can speak with…

taz taz taz pagdating ko sa opis ampf… can’t sleep… i found myself crying… deym can’t understand why… matagal na akong ndi naiyak… i mean really cry… deym… what happened? what is happening? what’s going on?

i remembered papa… how can He just not take away papa’s pain? i mean he’ve been sick for awhile now… this year is the third christmas that he will be celebrating in pain…

deym deym deym… i hate it… i hate everything! this is making me sick! this is ridiculous! don’t make me Hate You… please… don’t make me Hate You…

terible! ndi pa rin tapos ung phone call ko… pers call ko pa lang tong kausap ko… ampf! ang bobo ko lang! litsi! deym deym deym… deym uli… geez… pprivate ko ba tong post ko o ndi? ;seesaw; wapakels! lol… sabi ni devil ndi ko daw ipprivate… ;devil; mananalo ang kadiliman sa mga susunod na araw… ano naman kung maging masama ako minsan… ano kaya… pero ndi ako iresponsable… lol… lol… at lol… what i am doing is being irresponsible… am i am i am i? litsi! wapakels na lang dude! lol… ang gulo ko… ang gulo gulo ko… ala akong makausap eh so so so susulat mode daw ako…

ayun taz na at ndi pa sya resolved… unrecognized pa rin device nya… cx will try it on a different computer… it’s freaking cold daw sa place nila… lol… how about here? the weather is fine for me… lol…

ciao

missing you?

unheard, unseen?

unheard, i am shouting…

unseen, i am getting your attention…

reality bites…

reality is?

i dunno…

reality your peys!

bitter?

sweet?

bitter sweet?

sour?

lol? funny?

we will be gone…

i will be gone…

you will be gone…

i don’t exist…

you don’t exist…

everything will be lost…

everything will be forgotten…

happy?

yes, you!

you are happy!

do i know better?

you don’t even know what is better…

lol? funny?

experiment…

for me to know

for me to learn

and…

for your own pleasure

we are each others temptation…

.

i wanted you to need me…

let me feel that i am needed,

i might get back to you…

let me feel that i am needed,

i may be able to put myself back…

let me feel that i am needed,

i might get back to my senses…

let me feel that i am needed,

i may love you again…

let me feel that i am needed,

i may wear that smile again…

let me feel that i am needed,

i may stop from weeping…

let me feel that i am needed,

i may forget the happy moments…

let me feel that i am needed,

for that is all that i wanted…

NEED ME… please…

let me hide…

let me hide…
for this is the best thing that i can do for the moment…

one quote says ” Don’t ever forget that with each step a person is able to take on their own, they have become that much stronger. “

i may not face you now…
but i know when we come face to face i will be better…

i was again bound in that room…
the room where i am happy…
in that room everything is better…
that there is always a way for everything…

i have already bid goodbye to you…
in silence that is…
for if you heard, will it make a change?

let me hide even my shadow…
it can tell you the worst feeling i have for the moment…

it sounds right…


Hear me, hear me
This is for my baby
There will never be another
There’s so many ways I love you
And that’s just for the record, babe
I need you, need you
I can’t wait to see you
I so love when were together
Can’t nobody do it better
And that’s just for the record, babe

am ready

yeah am ready to go…

am ready to leave…

but ate said do not…

do not give up as well…

same thing with manong…

he said “kaya pa”…

i felt bad…

today…

the moon is full…

and so i fooled around…

i shall be better tomorrow… ;)

time will tell…

yes time will tell if it’s time to move on…

yes time will tell if it’s time to recover…

yes time will tell if i have to be happy…

yes time will tell when everything will be fine…

yes time will tell if what happens next…

only time can tell…

i do not wish…

i pray…

i do not move…

i wait…